It’s been a while since I blogged and thought this would be a good time to make one, specially since I’m thinking about a lot of things. This one may not make sense to anyone, I’m still posting it anyway 🙂
Was going to title this Turmoil but decided that isn’t a good word to use. I am in a little turmoil but it’s more of uncertainty of where my life is going than that.
I know what I should be doing and know what needs to be done and that I have control over my actions and thoughts and no one else’s. My actions causes how things go and where it’s going, like steering a boat. There are also other factors involved as well, like a strong wind pushing against you.
Like people, you can’t control them. You can try to control them and you can influence them but it’s not the right way to handle it. There is something wrong with your thinking and dealing with the world if you try controlling people.
Uncertainty comes from fear or to make a decision or taking action or not knowing what you want. It’s can also come from not having a plan. Like being in a boat at sea, having the wind blow you which ever direction it will is nice once in a while but without a plan/picking a direct you’ll just drift around.
Fear is a big one. I generally don’t fear much of anything, I know I can handle/deal with what ever it is. Most of the time what you feared about turns out to really not be nearly as bad as we thought or no big deal at all (worrying is another form).
Fear of making a wrong decision is probably one of the bigger ones that holds us back. Just as long as it’s not a life or death situation then go for it. A lot of times it’s a one time deal when it’s gone, it’s gone, and usually you don’t get a second chance. Life is to be grabbed ahold of, it’s not a spectator sport, well it can be but do you really want to just watch or regret not doing something later on? Can’t decide what you want then go sit in a room alone with paper and pencil with NO music, TV, books, phones, people or any other distractions and sit there until you figure it out. Don’t be in a hurry it may take some time and you might have to do it several times, keep at it until you have the answer. If you don’t know what you want or don’t go after what you want then what’s the point. I believe your heart or gut feeling to be the truth of what you want because it doesn’t over think things and it boils everything down to what you really want. Once you make a decision and act on it, right or wrong, you will feel purpose and you’ll feel like a weight is lifted off of your shoulders. If it was the wrong choice, at least you went for it and learned from it, just make some changes.
There is a storm in the direction I’m heading. I could go around it or even head in a different direction but my choice is to stay my course and weather the storm.